Aftereffects of heart surgery that I continue to combat:
-- Feel like a different personality (hard to describe)
-- Irritation (at nothing in particular)
-- No desire to see people
-- Feeling of betrayal
-- Loss of sharp and sustained ability to think
-- Loss of balance
-- Feeling of being old
-- Loss of motivation
-- Dizziness
-- Sense of being enclosed
Not all of these happen all at once.
Some of it may be due to the sotolol medication but most of it feels like the body's response to invasive trauma, similar to PTSD. No one on the medical team speaks of these things. Their concern is to make your physical heart behave. Dealing with your psychological, emotional, and spiritual heart is up to you.
-- Feel like a different personality (hard to describe)
-- Irritation (at nothing in particular)
-- No desire to see people
-- Feeling of betrayal
-- Loss of sharp and sustained ability to think
-- Loss of balance
-- Feeling of being old
-- Loss of motivation
-- Dizziness
-- Sense of being enclosed
Not all of these happen all at once.
Some of it may be due to the sotolol medication but most of it feels like the body's response to invasive trauma, similar to PTSD. No one on the medical team speaks of these things. Their concern is to make your physical heart behave. Dealing with your psychological, emotional, and spiritual heart is up to you.
I wish all surgeons could read this, and let the words sink into their ears.
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